It's your hands I miss
most.

When I got there,
they were already
cold
but pliable.
Still
not stone.

I lifted them to my lips.
Breathed on them.
As though I could
somehow
breathe
the life you had given me
back
into them.


It didn't work.


No,
wait.

They are
not
what I miss
Most.

They are just what I miss
Most
Today.



How I wish you had
allowed
that polished
shell
to be
turned
to ash.


Then I could have mixed
bits
of you with ink and had you
driven
into my skin.


So that
Now

I could look at my foot
and see your eye,

at my arm
and see your toes

at my hand
and see your
fingers.


So that I could
carry
your body in mine
as you carried
mine
in yours.

Almost.
Almost.

 

These are troubling times. Challenging times. And, as in almost all troubling and challenging times, many people are experiencing loss. Not just in the “usual” way — the end of physical life — but in other less tangible, but no less devastating, ways.

Loss of job, of income, of routine and freedom as a result of the necessary “social distancing” that may well be in place for months to come. Loss of health, of autonomy, of peace of mind due to the virus itself — these are just some of the losses that combine to create what we are experiencing as a global community and as individuals within that global community: The Loss of Normal.

We are all grieving, whether we realize it consciously or not — we are grieving The Loss of Normal.

Be patient — with yourself and with others.
Be gentle — with yourself and with others.
Be compassionate — with yourself and with others.
Be grateful — for all you have in each singular moment.
Be open — to receiving the lessons of loss, one of the greatest of which is the realization of Oneness, the realization in our enforced solitude that we are not, and never have been, really alone at all.

I offer you these words of Thomas Merton, in the hopes that you will find comfort in their quiet power as I have done.

You are not alone.

#anchorthelight

Sending all and each of you so much love,
Stephanie

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